The next few weeks will be tough as all of my teacher friends and family head back to school and get their new gaggle of students.
When I made the choice to stay home with Peyton is was an easy choice but at the same time a very emotionally difficult one. I'm not a very self boosting person but I was a good teacher....that was what I was meant to do, teach....and I loved it! So making the choice to give up something I loved and was good at....even if it was for something else I know I would love even more....it takes an emotional toll.
Though I have to admit as this time approached I have found myself feeling bits of doubt and regret for my decision....did I make the right one? Even though I know that I did. The problem was that as a teacher.....I gave 100%. And I quickly learned that for me...giving 100% as a teacher and giving 100% as a mom didn't mix well. I didn't want to be at work late getting ready for the next day....I wanted to be with Peyton. It wasn't fair to my students to not have a 100% teacher...and that's not who I am. And so I know that as much I LOVE teaching....it will be there when I'm ready to go back. But for now my place in life is home with Peyton.
I am so glad that as this tough time approachs Peyton is in such a fun age....doing and growing so much. Backward crawling (she can forward crawl...she just doesn't know she's doing it!), pulling herself up and making sounds that sound a lot like mom mom. This all makes me excited to see what's next and happy that I'll be home to see it happen :-)
Heck, if it weren't for staying home I probably would have never found this new love of sewing. So as one door closes....another one opens.
No comments:
Post a Comment